Deepest Apologies
To my loyal and long-suffering readership of about 3, who all wonder why in god's name I haven't written anything for almost 2 months.
Heavens.
I'm on it, people. This was one of the worst winters to date for me. I thought I had conquered SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder - you Seattleites should know this well) for good but it came for me with a vengeance this year and I fought it not at all. Ever since the days started to shorten in earnest (November?) I felt the fog of apathy, sadness and (this is a little melodramatic - see new blog title - but still) despair envelop me and no amount of Tracy's peppermint tea could assuage it. But I didn't fight. I didn't exercise, eat right, have lots of sex, force myself to play along the Internet Tubes, keep up with my friends and/or family. I didn't do any of the things that would have kept me alive during the long winter. And the saddest thing? I didn't know how bad it was until I opened my eyes today (not those eyes. The other ones), saw buds on trees and really knew for sure that spring was coming. I was nearly dead, exhausted and unhappy and kind of desperate. Today I'm alive and awake and disgustingly cheerful.
Signing off, but not for long,
Cerise
Heavens.
I'm on it, people. This was one of the worst winters to date for me. I thought I had conquered SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder - you Seattleites should know this well) for good but it came for me with a vengeance this year and I fought it not at all. Ever since the days started to shorten in earnest (November?) I felt the fog of apathy, sadness and (this is a little melodramatic - see new blog title - but still) despair envelop me and no amount of Tracy's peppermint tea could assuage it. But I didn't fight. I didn't exercise, eat right, have lots of sex, force myself to play along the Internet Tubes, keep up with my friends and/or family. I didn't do any of the things that would have kept me alive during the long winter. And the saddest thing? I didn't know how bad it was until I opened my eyes today (not those eyes. The other ones), saw buds on trees and really knew for sure that spring was coming. I was nearly dead, exhausted and unhappy and kind of desperate. Today I'm alive and awake and disgustingly cheerful.
Signing off, but not for long,
Cerise
5 Comments:
Good to have you back sis. I think everyone is at risk for a touch of the winter blues. Keep looking for buds. Love you. nrt
HEEEEEEEeeeeeeellllllloooooooooo, welcome back to the world. Winter sucks, especially when the freakin' groundhog says that spring is on it's way and 3 1/2 weeks later it snows!
welcome back dearie! spring certainly is in the air today.
You're back! Yeah!
Hope you are feeling much better and spring is here to stay.
You were missed.
Welcome back! Wondering how you were since we last corresponded...
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